Blue and Green World

Well… so much for my aim of blogging regularly. I’m tending to be either too busy or too tired to blog, so then when I do I have lots of little posts ready at the same time. I wish I was better at spacing them and blogging regularly but anyway here goes….

I’m feeling really hyped up today as I’ve just booked tickets to see Tori Amos (my favourite singer/songwriter) in concert in July. I always seem to get myself into such a state about booking seats for concerts and big theatre shows. I can never decide where I want to be and am convinced that they will sell out before I can buy any tickets. Anyway I’ve got fairly good seats that I am happy with, so roll on July!

I’m finally back online again and blogging again after suffering from a really horrible ‘flu. I don’t think I’ve ever had ‘flu before, just bad colds, so it came as a nasty suprise. I’m still not 100%. I’ve still got a cough and keep getting headaches but I’m feeling much much better.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my attitude to life and how I’m influenced by tv, the media and other things in life. I feel like I’m nowhere near as kind and compassionate as I used to be, and I don’t think it’s just getting older so much as life getting to me. Oh how to explain this clearly… I was talking with my mum and a friend a few weeks back and the friend was talking about how jelly babies were originally called ‘peace babies’, and then we were all saying how lovely it would be to reintroduce the name and how the world could do with more of that nowadays.

Then I was reading online about how ‘The Vicar of Dibley’ was the top Christmas tv show and I was reading comments from people decrying all the soaps, how bleak and depressing all the Christmas shows were, and how lovely it is to see anything positive and fun on tv. And then I watched ‘Challenge Anneka’ and saw all these giving people wanting to make a difference and crying with emotion at it all. And I think to myself, there are so many caring people out there who want to make a difference and give, and why is it that that is shown and represented so seldom? Or am I watching and reading the wrong things?

Anyway it’s made me think and maybe woken up the activist in me again, I used to be so passionate and idealistic once! Maybe instead of just whining I ought to do something about it. Hmmm…. still trying to sort this out in my head. Maybe I could find some groups or women’s or peace circles online. Wonder if I could use this site somehow…. Hmmm…

I really love this time of year. I’ve always loved Christmas - the Santa and presents bit as well as the religious side. I also love the idea of Yule and the wheel of the year, and would love to be out there lighting a bonfire, welcoming the sun back, and all of that. And we’re so close too to the New Year which always seems like such a chance for a new start. Normally I would have been getting a wreath for the front door and planning out a tree and ornaments and decorations and getting all enthusiastic.

But this year I just feel so tired and rundown… I’m only just back home, after moving out for a month while I had central heating and a new kitchen fitted here, and still the workmen seem to be here every day…. I wish I could be grateful for all the work having been done but it’s been so stressful that everytime I walk into the kitchen all I want to do is to kick a cupboard!

So the last thing I feel like doing is starting buying Christmas trees and decorating the place and celebrating, and it seems so late now anyway. Am I turning into an old grump or scrooge? I have decorated some cookies for Christmas and I’m hoping to decorate a gingerbread house, maybe on Christmas Eve. But still, my idea of a blissful Christmas at the moment would be to be curled up in bed, snug and warm, with no workmen knocking at the door….

for not having blogged for a while. Originally I was thinking of only blogging occasionally, so why do I feel bad that I haven’t blogged in a week??!

I am actually enjoying blogging more than I thought I would - especially getting comments (hint hint!) and am now becoming a bore trying to persuade everyone I know to start one, lol!

Chai tea….. YUM! A friend’s Canadian cousin introduced me to this one and I really do have to recommend it. I’m not the biggest fan of hot drinks but I do love spices. This is tea with cinnamon, cloves and ginger I think. Twinings do a lovely teabag version, scald the teabag as normal and add some sugar (a little even if you don’t normally as it helps bring the flavour out) and a drop of milk. Ahhh, perfection…..

My sister says there are lots but I’m not 100% convinced as yet. But I like the idea of logging my creations, and it seems like a nice way to keep family and friends a bit informed with what I’m up to.